Journal Entries
I’m combining yesterday and today into one post because, honestly, I didn’t have it in me to show up yesterday. I popped on briefly for the challenge, but even that felt like a stretch. After finding out what I did on Father’s Day, I’ve just been processing a lot emotionally.
It’s not my situation to control it’s completely out of my hands. But it’s devastating. And the hardest part is knowing there’s absolutely nothing I can do to fix it. So I’ve been letting myself feel the sadness instead of pushing it away. That’s what being healthy really means sometimes letting yourself sit in the truth without rushing to escape it.
On the 16th, I kept to myself most of the day. Later on, I needed fresh air and movement, so I took my daughter and granddaughter to the park. Walking the park is my thing. I used to love running it too, but I can’t do that anymore with pelvic congestion syndrome it just makes everything worse. I am a squat addict though so I always find a way to sneak those in daily. Movement still gives me so much life, even on heavy days.
Today, the 17th, was much more chill. It’s been hot, so we went to the library to cool off and I picked up two new books. I’m still reading two others now both self-growth books, which are totally my thing outside of history. I just love anything that helps with healing, reflection, or mental clarity also designs and gardens.
While we were at the library, my granddaughter started having a sore throat. And now my daughter isn’t feeling the best either. That’s just life with germs especially invisible ones. She mentioned a person was sick, so it’s not surprising. I’m really hoping I don’t get it, though. My immune system is not the strongest.
So, today felt very similar to yesterday emotionally. Heavy, reflective, a little foggy. But I’m trying to just push forward, hold space, pray, and send all the love I can to the people going through really hard things. Even if I can’t fix it, I can still love deeply. That’s something.
We did buy my granddaughter a new bathing suit and pool toys for when she feels better no way she’s going out in this heat not feeling well. Hopefully it’s just a cold. Kids bounce back fast, so we’ll see what tomorrow brings.
I’m off to read now and head to bed early. Sending good vibes to everyone who showed up for the movement challenge today. We’re so close to the end but honestly, I’m not stopping after this one I walk daily. And yes, I’ve already got ideas brewing for round two
Goodnight, friends. 💛